Where to begin... I cannot believe it’s been three months since our sweet Lela was born. The time has both flown by and yet our lives before her seem so distant (and different). They say having a baby changes everything and truer words have never been spoken. I thought I had some understanding of what that meant — sure there would be less sleep, more laundry, and getting out of the house would be a logistical challenge — but until we were IN it, I had no idea just how different life would really be.
The love I feel for this tiny new person is overwhelming and more than I ever knew possible. My love for Richard has also grown tremendously, and seeing him become a father has been such a privilege. We were fortunate to have many visitors and helping hands in town during the early weeks as well. Between physically recovering from labor and what felt like constant nursing, I was pretty housebound besides a quick trip to Trader Joe’s or stroll around the block. I am so grateful to everyone who stopped by or brought food and I appreciate it more than you’ll ever know!
Full disclosure, motherhood has also come with a fair share of anxiety for me. The responsibility of caring for a being who depends so completely on you definitely hit me harder than expected. I’m getting more confident as the weeks go on, but it’s been a challenge for me for sure. Every time she looks up at me with that big gummy smile though, my heart literally swells with joy and I can’t wipe the smile off my face.
Our first Christmas as a family of four was my favorite ever. I loved being back up north and introducing Lela to more friends and family, and felt so accomplished after we successfully tackled the long road trip up there! She slept in my arms all Christmas morning while the fam exchanged gifts and I know it sounds SO cheesy but that memory is the only gift I’ll ever need.
The past few weeks have also been really special as Lela is becoming less of a “newborn” and more of an alert little lady! Though she is still rarely awake for more than 1 or 2 hours at a time, she is now much more interested in her surroundings and interacting with us. She has really been enjoying Richard’s tummy tickles and my puppet shows. She loves bath time, story time, and dance parties in the nursery. When she was super fussy during the first month, sometimes the only thing that would calm her down was blasting Frankie Valli and the Four Seasons until she fell asleep. Go figure! She and Emma have also had a special bond from the start and their sweet friendship has been one of our favorite things to witness.
I could go on and on, but it’s two minutes to midnight and I should definitely be sleeping. Lela, thank you for making me a mom, for humbling me, for teaching me how little sleep you can actually survive on, and for all the sweet snuggles and coo’s. I love you so! Happy three months!